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Grandma (again)

Today, the message is that Grandma has died (really, this time), about two hours ago.

After seeing her Saturday afternoon, I can't even be sad about it. I'm just relieved. It isn't just about ending the suffering. To me, quality and dignity of life are much more important than length of life. As of Saturday, quality was dubious at best, and dignity was completely gone. I wasn't sure I'd be able to make myself go back next weekend. I'm sure I'll be sad later, and a mess at the funeral, but at the moment I see it only as a blessing.

Probably the funeral will be Thursday. I'll put up some more details when I have them.

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museasylum626
Feb. 6th, 2006 07:54 pm (UTC)
hug.
swimpaddlz
Feb. 6th, 2006 08:15 pm (UTC)
**big hug**
calloocallay
Feb. 6th, 2006 09:50 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad I got to see you yesterday. It sounded like it was her time. *major hugs*
tristam
Feb. 6th, 2006 11:14 pm (UTC)
*hug*
turtle_morn
Feb. 7th, 2006 01:54 am (UTC)
*hug*
leftsphenoid
Feb. 7th, 2006 02:43 am (UTC)
*hug*
ourika
Feb. 7th, 2006 04:48 am (UTC)
Another one
*huggles*
jaedeth
Feb. 14th, 2006 03:43 pm (UTC)
If you want to talk, or run away from home for a while, I'm available. love ya.
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