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Dec. 12th, 2003

This isn't fun. Things I do in my free time, of my own accord, are supposed to be things I enjoy, aren't they?

Preparing for this upcoming game is making me miserable. I simply don't have the time or the energy to devote to this that other people seem to have. There is so much else going on right now, between work and Christmas the rest of life. And it's the time of year that keeping up energy levels becomes a challenge anyway. And this is requiring an incredible amount of preparation time for something that's only going to be a one-day game.

I don't want to give it up, though. I truly enjoy roleplaying, and find it to be relaxing. And it's nice to be able to leave myself behind. If I can just survive this character generation hell, it will be something that will make me happy.

But right now, it's just one more piece of stress and pressure bringing me remarkably close to the breaking point.

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tristam
Dec. 12th, 2003 10:02 am (UTC)
*hug* Here's to getting through it, whatever it may be.
turtle_morn
Dec. 12th, 2003 10:25 am (UTC)
*hugs*

Didn't the holiday season used to be fun?
collacentaur
Dec. 12th, 2003 11:21 am (UTC)
It still is. For all the work of the season, I truly love it. Last night, I was covered in icing for the gingerbread cookies and getting a cramp in my hand from the pastry tube. But I love it. I love writing cards and buying and wrapping gifts, because it's so much fun to see people get them. If I get it right, just once, it makes all the work and stress worthwhile.
justbishop
Dec. 12th, 2003 11:41 am (UTC)
Do what I do... just tell the GM to make a character for you.
collacentaur
Dec. 12th, 2003 11:52 am (UTC)
That stopped working for me about three years ago.

Besides, I have a good idea of what I want. I just don't have time to write down the full character background. And I despise the crunching numbers and forcing Word to do what I want for a usable character sheet, and I don't have time for that either - besides which, I did all the number part last night, and the computer ate it.
soupkills
Dec. 12th, 2003 11:53 am (UTC)
Kender Psionicist!
collacentaur
Dec. 12th, 2003 12:07 pm (UTC)
A world with kender is a world without me.
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ourika
Dec. 12th, 2003 01:26 pm (UTC)
I want gingerbread cookies. D and I said we’d make another gingerbread house like we did two years ago, but it just isn’t going to happen :( (and we had sooo much fun doing it!_=)
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