Stephanie (collacentaur) wrote,
Stephanie
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Grandma (again)

Today, the message is that Grandma has died (really, this time), about two hours ago.

After seeing her Saturday afternoon, I can't even be sad about it. I'm just relieved. It isn't just about ending the suffering. To me, quality and dignity of life are much more important than length of life. As of Saturday, quality was dubious at best, and dignity was completely gone. I wasn't sure I'd be able to make myself go back next weekend. I'm sure I'll be sad later, and a mess at the funeral, but at the moment I see it only as a blessing.

Probably the funeral will be Thursday. I'll put up some more details when I have them.
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