The frustrating part is the wardrobe problem. Y'see, I had spent a fair amount of time, energy, and certainly money over the last couple of years, to not only make sure I had a full collection of professional clothing that fit and looked decent, but also to buy things that were more formal, or less, and even to update my casual wardrobe beyond just Medfest t-shirts and the like.
Now, everything I own is two sizes too large. Even the two pairs of pants I bought a month ago are already starting to look baggy. I thought I was only down one size, but I just ordered a couple of basic skirts to replace ones that are becoming challenging to keep on, and at two sizes smaller, they're a little loose (which, admittedly, the larger ones were at my top weight). I also grabbed a blouse one size smaller, and it looks like I could have gone two sizes there as well.
This is going to be a very expensive year.
I have no idea what I will wear to my brother's wedding. I know nothing I have now will fit. I would be shopping for it, but I don't know what size I'll be in another two months.
I think the most frustrating thing, though, is that between wearing all the same clothes, baggy as they are, and this being layer season, no one can even tell. I could really use a little positive feedback, y'know? I know that I could post up charts and numbers and get encouragement every week, but that seems forced, like begging for praise. I don't want cheerleaders. I just want someone to notice and spontaneously tell me I look good, without being prompted. (Which obviously rules out anyone who reads this.) And while I'm still in the too-large clothing, I really don't think anyone will, even the people who don't see me often and aren't used to the gradual change.
I could just buy more clothing in the smaller size, but I'm still planning to lose enough more to go down at least another full size, maybe even two. So I don't want to put a lot of money into an interim wardrobe - just enough to stay decent. I can't afford to indulge my vanity much.